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I am PUPO!

This is a term used in the IF world that means, Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise. It is amazing to think that I finally made it here!!! Here is what has been going on:

On 10/25 we had our egg retrieval and got 18 eggs! We were so happy to get that many, it was a wonderful harvest and one we never expected!!! The anesthesia was wonderful and I guess I snored throughout part of the procedure, haha! When I woke up I was sore, but wide awake and feeling pretty good. I got home and rested the rest of the day, taking Tylenol regularly. We got the call the next day to tell us that 14 out of 18 of our eggs fertilized normally! They like to see 50%, so this was amazing news!!!! I was basically floating on air. 🙂

One 10/28 it was the big day, transfer day! We got to the clinic and I had to have a full bladder and then take one lone Valium when I got there (which was heavenly, ha!). They took me back and let me know that of all the embryos we had 3 rockstars and could transfer all if we chose, but we had already decided to go with 2. So we transferred 1-eight cell embryo and 1-six cell embryo, both with NO fragmentation, which is about as perfect as you can get. The rest are being grown out to day 5 and they will freeze what has made it that far, hopefully we get a few to freeze. It is a nice insurance policy if this round doesn’t work and if we would ever want to try again, makes the process much easier.

Here is a photo from the transfer, I haven’t been able to stop looking at it!!!


It is an amazing keepsake from a long journey!

So I was on bed rest for two days and now I am on light activity for the next four days. No lifting, no cleaning, no baths, etc. It is harder than I thought, but worth it. Our beta test is scheduled for 11/11/11, which seems very lucky to me, I am hoping we get the news we have been waiting for. Keeping myself busy between now and then is going to be quite the chore, but I can do it. And luckily not too many meds going on right now, only the PIO shots (which really aren’t that bad) and a daily estrogen pill, plus the normal cocktail of vitamins, baby aspirin, etc. 🙂

So we will see what happens and I am going to try to not test before my beta, but I don’t know if I will be able to hold out. Time will tell!


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CD 1 already…..

Well my body decided to move on all by itself. Even though today was my last birth control pill and I am on Lupron they couldn’t hold off AF from showing. So we are officially on cycle day one of our first (and hopefully only) IVF. I called my IVF coordinator and I am scheduled for my baseline ultrasound and E2 check on Thursday morning. She said they like to have you on Lupron for at least 7 days prior to starting stims, but if everything looks okay we might begin sooner. Thursday will be day 5 of Lupron. They also need to check me for my Rubella titers and give me all the surgery information/guidelines.

It should be an interesting visit. I am just hoping that everything is nice and quiet and we can start stims quickly and get a move on. I am ready to have this whole journey moving. It has been such a long time coming. We are coming up on almost five years of trying to conceive. So many ups and downs, laughing and crying, and just a tiring time. It has made me a stronger person though and I have learned not to take things for granted and to live each day to its fullest. It has also taught me that it is okay to take time for ME and not always worry about everyone else. I have to make sure that I am in a good place and that I take a few minutes each day to do something nice for myself. But most of all it has taught me to appreciate my family, friends and even strangers. While a lot of people talk about the negative comments they get, I am trying to focus on the positives. The support I have received is amazing and I couldn’t do this without it. You all know who you are, THANK YOU!

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Well this cycle still isn’t over. My temps have dropped the last few days but not below the coverline. Still really no symptoms one way or the other. And still stark white negative pregnancy tests. So I guess it is one of two things that have happened. One, the Clomid has seriously messed up my cycle….I am 16dpo, I have never in my life gone past a 14 day luteal phase and add in that Clomid delayed ovulation you get the longest cycle ever for me. I am on day 31, usually I have 26 day cycles.

The second possibility is that I have some sort of functioning cyst….follicular or luteal. This is the one I am hoping that it isn’t. Cyst can go away on their own, rupture and cause damage, need surgery, etc. I am having some pain in my lower back on the side where all the follicles are, so it is a possibility…..especially since Clomid can cause cysts. But, I am hoping not.

I guess there is a third possibility and that is that I am pregnant, but at this stage I am thinking that is a very slim chance.

I am going to call my RE tomorrow and tell them everything that is going on, I am assuming they will want me to come in for bloodwork and an u/s, so we should know more soon.

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Negative. It really isn’t much of a surprise since I have been testing early and often (maybe goes back to my Chicago roots, haha). But it still hurts a lot. We had such high hopes that this cycle would work. But, it didn’t and now I am just ready to move on.

We just have to wait for AF to show so I can call and schedule my monitoring appointments and order my meds. I am really hoping she shows before tonight…my best friend is coming over and bringing me Ben & Jerry’s and I think a little wine would go nicely with that. LOL!

I think we are going to go with the same meds this next round, but if it doesn’t work again I am going to push for moving on up to injectables. Here’s hoping my lining will be a bit better this time. I am going to possibly do some supplements to help out with that.

Thanks for all the support through this first IUI cycle, it helped a lot and at least now we know what to expect.

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Brian and I finally tied the knot. We have been together for a long time….almost 17 years and have had many ups and downs, triumphs and defeats. But through it all we have held each other up, laughed, joked and wiped each other’s tears. We are having kind of low key day for our anniversary. Since we are doing the fertility treatments we decided on no gifts and just a quiet dinner out.

Here is my favorite photo from our wedding! It was such an amazing day.


We were hoping for a different type of anniversary present, a positive pregnancy test. I am now 12 days past my IUI and chances are pretty high that if I was pregnant a test would be positive today. Unfortunately, that wasn’t the case. Now it could be too soon, the doctor told me to test on Friday, so I guess there is still a chance. Sadly though I am having symptoms of my cycle coming to an end, so it is doubtful.

I was sad, but resolved to try again. I am going to contact the clinic shortly and talk about possibly changing up my meds for this next round. Since my lining was on the thin side, I am concerned that it might make it harder for an embryo to implant. Mine was 6.5 mm the day before the trigger, most RE’s like to see it 8 or over. Clomid is notorious for thinning one’s lining, so I might see about supplements or even possibly using injectables this time around. We shall see what they suggest and when I know the timeline I will be sure to update. 🙂

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IUI #1 update!

So here is all the news on our first IUI cycle. On Wednesday the 8th I took the trigger shot at 9:30 pm, it really didn’t hurt much at all and Brian did a wonderful job administering it. I think it was harder on him than me. 🙂 All was fine until about 2:30 am when I woke up with the WORST nausea ever. I never get nauseous I hate throwing up, dread it and will do anything to avoid it. I fought it all day on Thursday and also major fatigue. It makes sense, since the trigger shot is hCG, the hormone your body produces when you are pregnant. Man, I hope that isn’t a taste of what will happen if I really do end up pregnant.

So then we went in to the clinic on Friday morning, we had to be there 1 hour before the procedure so they could take the vial out of the freezer. You have to physically be on site before they will do it because it is only viable for a short period of time and they don’t want to waste it….and rightly so, it is expensive. LOL! So we played games on my iPad and waited and waited and waited. Finally it was time and Brian got to go back with me this time. The doctor came in and talked with us a bit and checked out my “lucky charms” and loved them to bits. Then we got down to business. The whole procedure is almost exactly like the HSG test, but not so much pressure. You get into the stirrups, they insert a speculum and then the catheter into your cervix and inject the sperm directly into your uterine cavity. Over and done with in about 5 minutes. Then they have you put your feet up on the table and lay flat for about 10 minutes. After that you are on your way. No special instructions, except for normal TTC stuff, no drinking, no heavy lifting, no getting overheated, etc.

I had some pretty bad cramping the rest of the day and I was still fatigued from the trigger shot and bloated from the Clomid. My mom came over that day and we had a movie day on the couch, it was perfect. Unfortunately the next day I had one of the worst migraines EVER, who knows what caused it, but man it was rough.

So here I am now, on CD20 and 5 days passed the IUI, feeling much better today, getting my energy back, although I have been taking a nap everyday. I am sitting awake each night driving myself nuts with every little twinge and pain, but am trying to stay optimistic. I know that chances are that it won’t work the first time, but it can as well. It is a very hard place to be and it is hard to know what to feel exactly.

So now we wait…..I was given direction from the doctor to take a home pregnancy test on the 24th and call in with the results. If it is positive they will set up a blood draw to get my beta and if it is negative, we just wait for my period to start and then we do the same thing all over again. Clomid + U/S + trigger shot + IUI.

Fingers crossed!

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I went in this morning for my first ultrasound to see how my body responded to the Clomid. Turns out, that it was responding perfectly. I have 2 nice sized follicles at 16mm and 2 other smaller ones. 🙂 So the plan is that I take my trigger shot (Ovidrel) tomorrow night and then the IUI is scheduled at 9:30 on Friday morning. 🙂 We have to be there an hour early because they won’t take our donor sperm out of the tank until we are physically in the office due to liability issues.

So we are almost there! Ack!!! LOL!

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