Posts Tagged ‘infertility’

So, I have never been good at following “rules” and of course the whole no testing rule is one that I could not follow at all. I got my first ever real positive HPT on 11/4! That would put me at 11 days past ovulation if this was a “normal” cycle.

The clinic would not move my beta test up, so I had to wait until 11/11/11 for it and it was 441 (14dp3dt or 17dpo). It is a great number and I am so very excited. Next beta is 11/18 and our first ultrasound is 11/25….no Black Friday shopping for us. 😉

Now of course it is super early, but finally after 5 long years I am pregnant. We are so very happy and will continue to enjoy every moment. My friends and family are over the moon. I am so lucky to have such a great support system.


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Triggering tonight!

So tonight is the night, our trigger shot, which will prepare my body to ovulate at this right time for the egg retrieval. It is a huge intermuscular shot give in the buttocks. BLECH! Not looking forward to it at all, but glad we are here.

My egg retrieval is set for 8am sharp on Tuesday. At last count I have 21 follicles, but some were a bit on the small side. I have been very uncomfortable the last fews days since I do have a high amount of follicles. We will know how many after the procedure on Tuesday and then get a fertilization report the next day. I will be happy with 8-10, but at this point any will be great.

I am still super nervous about the egg retrieval procedure. I have heard from some that it isn’t bad at all, to others who say it is horrible. Here’s hoping I am on the good side of it. I should sleep through the whole thing, they give you IV sedation. Then I will come home and be on bed rest for the rest of the day.

Our clinic does three day transfers for fresh cycles and then grows the rest out to 5 days to freeze. As long as I get a few to freeze I will feel like I can breathe easy, knowing that if this doesn’t work we can do a frozen transfer. Which is amazing to both Brian and I that we might have babies in the freezer, or totsicles as my friend calls them.

So we are excited, nervous and everything in between, but most of all thankful for having this chance to have a child. In this country it is not a given, most people are 100% out of pocket and many cannot afford it. So I am counting my blessings.

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CD 1 already…..

Well my body decided to move on all by itself. Even though today was my last birth control pill and I am on Lupron they couldn’t hold off AF from showing. So we are officially on cycle day one of our first (and hopefully only) IVF. I called my IVF coordinator and I am scheduled for my baseline ultrasound and E2 check on Thursday morning. She said they like to have you on Lupron for at least 7 days prior to starting stims, but if everything looks okay we might begin sooner. Thursday will be day 5 of Lupron. They also need to check me for my Rubella titers and give me all the surgery information/guidelines.

It should be an interesting visit. I am just hoping that everything is nice and quiet and we can start stims quickly and get a move on. I am ready to have this whole journey moving. It has been such a long time coming. We are coming up on almost five years of trying to conceive. So many ups and downs, laughing and crying, and just a tiring time. It has made me a stronger person though and I have learned not to take things for granted and to live each day to its fullest. It has also taught me that it is okay to take time for ME and not always worry about everyone else. I have to make sure that I am in a good place and that I take a few minutes each day to do something nice for myself. But most of all it has taught me to appreciate my family, friends and even strangers. While a lot of people talk about the negative comments they get, I am trying to focus on the positives. The support I have received is amazing and I couldn’t do this without it. You all know who you are, THANK YOU!

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So I took my first shot of Lupron this morning. Brian did a great job of injecting it and it just stung a bit. No real side effects yet, but it has only been a couple of hours. My last birth control pill is on Tuesday and then as soon as AF shows I call the IVF department and go in for an ultrasound. If everything is clear, we start the stimulation meds. 

We are going to be using a combination of Menopur and Bravelle to stimulate my ovaries. It is a pretty standard protocol to use. So in the next couple of weeks we will be going forward and having the egg retrieval and embryo transfer. I am so glad it is finally here!  It has been a long road and while this isn’t a sure thing, it has much greater chances for a positive outcome.  I am on,y really dreading the progesterone in oil shots…..they are intermuscular shots, given in the rear. The needle is 22 gauge and an inch and a half long. And if I end up pregnant I will have to continue them for 8-10 weeks. Yikes. But the end results are worth it! 

I have been really bad about updating because I have had a horrible cold and then stomach bug, but it all seems to have gone away just in time. 

As for other news, I am teaching a dyeing class on Saturday for our local guild, it should be a fun time. Also, I broke down and ordered a new iPhone 4s!  It will be my first iPhone and I am super excited. It will be here on Friday. I have a Droid X now and really am not happy with the Droid operating system and my phone seems to have a mind of it’s own sometimes. Since I have and iPad and iMac it only made sense to get and iPhone too. Now everything will sync together. I am especially excited about the new Siri technology, it seems really neat. 

So I will try to update regularly throughout the IVF process. It really helps to write everything down. 

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It is onto IVF for us…..

Well our last IUI sadly didn’t work. So we had our consult and have made the decision to go forward with IVF. IVF is a much more invasive process and takes longer. It is about six weeks from beginning to end for the type of protocol we are using. I will be on what they call the long Lupron protocol.

Right now this is where we stand….I am waiting for AF to show. I call the clinic on that day, then we go in on cycle day 2-4 for bloodwork for both, an u/s for me and a s/a for dh. I also start on birth control pills that day. Seems odd doesn’t it? But it helps to “surpress” the ovaries for a while so they aren’t overworked before the other procedures.

A week after that I have to go in for a saline sonogram to make sure that my uterus is clear of fibroids/polyps/endo. As long as that is good then we are all set to start the big guns.

On cycle day 21 I start Lupron which will shut down the pituitary gland from affecting my ovaries. Then I wait for AF to show again and the I start my stimulation meds….no clomid or Femara this time, all injectibles all the time. There are a few other meds in there too like antibiotics, baby aspirin, Ganirelix which makes sure your follicles don’t mature too fast and so on.

Then I go in every other day for u/s and bloodwork until my follicles are ready, then we trigger and I go in for the egg retrieval. It is a small surgical procedure done under IV sedation. I am actually most nervous about this as I have never had any type of surgery done. I know I will just sleep through it, but I am nervous. So hopefully we will get 5-12 eggs from the retrieval. Then they put them in with the sperm and wait for fertilization.

After three days they will pick three embryos to implant (the rest will be grown out to blasts and frozen) and will do that via a catheter. It is very similar to the IUI procedure. I will then be on two days of bed rest and then have a blood test eleven days after that.

The doctor said for my age this raises me from a 10-15% chance to a 45-50% chance. I like those odds. So as this goes on I will update and explain things in a bit more detail. It really is a fascinating process, especially when you get into frozen embreyos and transfers.

Thanks so much for all the support through all of this, I couldnt do it with out my friends irl and online. 🙂

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So this cycle is also a bust and ended super early, instead of late like last time. I think the timing of this IUI was messed up…I am pretty sure I ovulated the day I got my trigger shot. So there was really no chance. But who knows for sure.

I called the clinic and am changing my protocol for this new cycle. I will be taking 5mg of Femara instead of the Clomid. It is a drug for postmenopausal women with breast cancer actually. But it has an off label use for infertility and I hear less side effects as well. Brian will be pleased. Best thing is that it is actually covered by insurance! You gotta smile at the small stuff.

This will be our last IUI before moving onto IVF, so we are hoping it will be lucky #3. IVF is not only expensive, but very hard on your body. The egg retrieval is a surgical procedure and bed rest is required after the transfer. And the meds….you take huge amounts. So fingers crossed that we don’t have to go that route.

My first monitoring ultrasound is August 3rd,so we will see how I respond to the new med and go from there.

I will be updating with actual knitting stuff in the next day or so as well….lots to share!

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Well it has officially been over a year since we started trying to get pregnant and nothing, nada, zilch.  Not even a hint of a line.  Honestly this has been the hardest thing my husband and I have ever done and it has not been easy on our relationship.

So, we are taking a break.  No testing, no adoption meetings, nothing.  It isn’t really what I would choose, but I totally understand and respect my dh with everything I have.  There is still a part of me that is screaming….YOU ARE GETTING OLDER and that the clock is quickly ticking by.  But, I know this is the best move for now.  I just wish that it could have been easy, but it seems it isn’t for a lot of people.  It is hard not to be sad though.

So moving on……..

I am finally starting to feel better from this nasty flu I got, it has been almost a week and I am tired of being sick.  It has been making the rounds in our family and lasts a good week or two and lingers longer than that with the cough and congestion.  Blech.  I am definitely going to get my flu shot this week, don’t want to tempt fate.

So obviously with being sick I haven’t gotten any dyeing or much spinning done.  Just trying to finish up my swap yarn, it is taking forever but I am loving how it is coming out.  It is some of the best spinning I have done to date.

I hope to get the dyepots up and running by the end of the week.  Same with getting my photos updated from my trip to Disney.   I just have little energy right now.

Ooooh one quick addition, I did make it to the Bucs game on Sunday.  It was an early Christmas present from Brian (my dh), he is such a sweetie.  He splurged and got us club seats.  It was fun and I loved being there, but we both agree that we like it better at home.  We are such fuddy duddies.  LOL!  You should see the tan lines we got, wowza.  That is the only thing that kept me alive during the game, the brutal sun! 

Oh and I was a naughty girl and finally used my 10% coupon at Blue Moon Fiber Arts last night, I ordered coughcougheightskeinsandasheep2shoekitcoughcough.  The new Raven series is to DIE for.  I got one skein in Octobers sock club and fell in love and knew I needed more.  I will now have 4 all together.  I decided to not rejoin the club.  I enjoyed it, but the price is a bit much for what you get and I prefer to pick out what I want.  So I placed that order, spent less and got way more minus patterns, which is fine by me.  🙂

So now I am going to try to sleep some more, without coughing up my lungs.  😉

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